YOU CAN ONLY TRULY LOVE...
IF YOU CANNOT EVEN IN THE SLIGHTEST...
LOVE ANYONE ELSE...
When my life didn't move on i saw no more reason to live on. In spite of my efforts to atone for the sins that i had done i was still in darkness, after losing the light which i had been longing for i had lost all my happiness with it. I tried to give what light remained in me to help strengthen the light once again but... losing all light which gave me happiness it was now harder to rest in peace. I had already died but why is it that i still feel pain. But even though i was in pain at least she was now happier than when we were together... That's all what mattered to me... When a problem arose within my mind she used to comfort me but now that it was gone i doubted myself a lot... And i still do as of now. When I tried to get on my feet i was glad that i couldn't, it would have been useless to move on since i didn't even want to live on. What irony it is for a person like me to even try to live again when all i want is to die. We all know that when a person is dead it cannot be brought back to life and i was glad that i couldn't. As time passed by my body eventually became weaker and weaker until i couldn't even cry... Now, not a single tear may drop from my eyes, no cries of sorrow to let the pain in my chest out... I had reached the state in which i had forgotten how to be sad and how much i had suffered because of it. And at the days end the sun would always set with my eyes glued upon the horizon in blank content.
-frozen heartbeat
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